Tired Tuesday

I am feeling tired today and it's only Tuesday! It's seems like this week is going to be a long one. I have been working overtime this week. Two reasons : one - I need spending money for my up coming trip, and two - they need me at work. We are short handed. Seeing how I want the money; I guess I can't complain to much.

My husband and I have been talking about buying a home now for sometime. We have been looking at homes in our area. We just haven't committed to it. I am torn. I really want a home, but I don't want to be eating ramen noodles everyday of my life either. We are so tightly budgeted it's depressing. We are out growing this tiny apartment day after day. Having 2 kids in this place it's starting to shrink in on us. I think it's time for us to really start getting serious on buying a new home or finding a bigger place.

On another note, 2 more weeks before the wedding in Iowa. And 6 more weeks before I go to Montana. I am getting really excited!!

Rain,Rain,Rain Go Away!!!

It has been raining forever. I'm getting sick of rain, and the humidity as well. Where is all the nice weather? Come Come out Come out were ever you are! Well today was registration day for the kids school. I got out the comb, wiped the dirt off there faces, got them all dressed nicely to get there pictures taken. So at least that is all done and over with. I still need to get there school supplies. I guess that will be this weekends task. Next week will be open house at Rozalynn's school. We will be able to meet her new teacher. Roz is so excited to be in the second grade and that she gets to have a new teacher. Keanul got his class schedule for the up coming year. He took over to one of his friends house to see if they are any of the same classes.

So the only thing that I am doing right now is trying to find a good deal on flights for my mother. She and my dad are looking to go to Vegas next month for their 10 year wedding anniversary. This is my mother 3rd husband. His name is John. He is a very nice man. I enjoy spending time with him. He is a talker though. He could just talk your ear off if you let him. They are so opposite of each other. I guess that balances them out in some since. Maybe number 3 will be the lucky number.

Me personnel don't believe in divorce. I guess my husband is just stuck with me forever. Which I guess some people may find hard to believe; seeing how I have came from a broken home. But, I am a person that takes her vowels very seriously. Plus I love him very much! except I'm not loveing his alarm clock right now!! I think to many people are so quickly to jump ship when the water starts to get to wavy. Marriage is not taken very seroiusly any more. Which is very sad. Divorce comes so easy, and it's a quick fix. Why get married if you know it's not going to last? Why not just live with each other or date each other for years. I know that everyone knows deep down, some deeper than others, inside if that is the person for them. Some people just don't listen to there inner voice. You know that voice that tells or screams at you "No, don't do that!"

I guess in the end I'm just trying to say. Know yourself, listen to your inner voice, love yourself, trust your judgement, and you'll know what to do. If anything pray about it.

Well not much going on lately. Rick and I had a nice and mellow weekend. Saturday I had to work. (boo). Rick and I went out for supper which was nice. Sunday we were suppose to go my company picnic, but it was cancelled , do to rain. So my daughter to went to go see Hairspray with Grandma and her friend. Rick and Keanul went and seen SuperBad. So I went shopping. Than Saturday evening we went to Mom's house for supper. Mark and Rhonda show all of us there video footage from there trip to Nicaragua. Which was incredible!

Some of the footage reminded of Taiwan. The open markets, the dogs running wild, and not being able to flush the toilet paper down the toilet. It's hard to wrap your mind around how other countries live there day to day lives. It's sad, but yet rejoyful at the same time. For them this is life. They are some what at peace. This is what they know. For us it's unimaginable. We wonder why? why are you living like this? why is your government not doing something? why isn't someone helping out this country? But I think that as human we shouldn't be asking why and how. We should be thinking wow that is amazing that they can survive on so little. How God is great. That we think that they are so miserable, but when we look into there eyes they are so grateful. That all you have to do is a simple "hello" or wave and a smile comes across there face. I know that if we could all just chip in and give to are fellow man ( big or small) that we could all feel at peace.

Thank you Rhonda and Mark for sharing your wonderful journey. I learned a lot. I hope I will be able to go with and share the experience on day.

Sophia

Today I went to one of my girlfriend's house she was throwing a Lia Sophia party. I didn't realize how much I liked jewelry until tonight. I mean I like jewelry , but I really like jewelry..heehee. There was way to much to choose from. I could hardly decide. I wanted it all. But seeing how I am on a budget I might be able to swing a bracelet..and maybe a necklace. I liked it so much I booked a party for myself. Just so I can get a few free stuff or discount items. Got to love sales. Then I can go to my hubby.. but honey it was on sale! ;)

The house is so quite to night! No Rozalynn, she is at my sister's house sleeping over. No Keanul, he went to sleep over at one of his friend's house. No, Jarad he went home tonight. Mark and Rhonda are back from their trip. Rick will be leaving soon to go to work. I will have the house all to myself. Well with the exception of Emily, our dog. I just hope no bats or any other unwanted visitors come tonight. LOL. It's a change seeing how we've had a house full of people the past week. The silence is almost killing me. With the exception of Rick's alarm clock going off for the last 10 minutes. Seriously is he going to shut the darn thing off or what?! I can't see how he can sleep though that. It is such an annoying noise. But he manages to sleep right through as it is driving me crazy! Well it's off to boot Rick out of bed so he can go to work, and shut off his darn alarm clock. I could say other words, but I figured I would keep it PG tonight.

Good night everyone.

School Shopping Yuk!

Well got almost all of my school shopping done. Still need the school supplies and shoes for the kids than we are done. Found a dress for Rozalynn and an outfit for me for Brent's wedding. Now I just need to find something for Keanul and we'll be set. Not much going on here. Jarad's last night with us. Mark and Rhonda get back tomorrow sometime. It's been fun having him stay with us. He's been keeping Keanul busy which is great for me. Summer is almost done and that means boredom. Mom I'm bored! can we go somewhere, can we do something, can we, can we, there's nothing to do. I can't wait for school back up. The kids need to get back on a schedule and it's a great structure for them. Not to mention it's get for me too.

Well school is just around the corner. Rozalynn is getting excited to return. She can't wait to be in 2nd grade. I can't believe she's going into second grade already. Keanul on the other hand, not so excited. He will be in 8th grade this year hard to believe. I hope that this year will go alot smoother than last year for him. I hate grounding him for his grades, but come on it's not that hard to get good grades or average grades. He's very smart. Just very lazy. You almost got to light a fire under his butt to get him going. I find taking away the Xbox is an okay strategy, but sometime it doesn't faze him at all. We might have to try something different this year. If you got any ideas just fly them this way.

I can't believe the cost of going to school is. It will be almost $90 to register the kids and get pictures taken. See how they take pictures the same day as registration. That not including if Keanul wants to sign up for any sports this year though school. The year book for Keanul is an additional $22.00. And that doesn't include school supplies and school clothes. I know it will only get worse as they get older. I'm just venting. Who's decision was it to have kids?(lol ) just joking.

So tomorrow I'll be going shopping to see if I can find any deals on clothes. I am still searching for an outfit for myself for the wedding. Oh and searching for everyone else too. I was showing Keanul a pair of dress/casual shoes. And he let me know that I would just be wasting my money, because he doesn't like to wear those type of shoes. So I had to inform him that no he will not be wearing tennis shoes/ sneakers at the wedding. So then he informed that he'd only be wearing them once. Boy, don't they just know how to push your buttons and send you over the edge!

Well on that note, I'm going to get ready for bed. Getting tired. Have a good night everyone.

Well it's Friday. Another week gone by. Like I said early this week Jarad are nephew is staying with us. Him and Keanul have been keeping themselves busy. Jarad got a canoe so they went fishing yesterday, and they got up early this morning to go fishing. Jarad was telling me the other day that he got to be a cashier instead of a bagger. He works at Woodman's Grocery store.
I remember when I was a teenager I work at various place. My first job was working in a Chinese restaurant, busgirl. My second job was the best; I worked in an ice cream parlor. Talk about yummy!! So I must say I know how to make a mean shake or malt. My third job was being a cashier at NewMart in Janesville when I was 17. I did like that job, but the grocery store went out of busy. Oh to be a teenager again! Spend your money where ever you want to. Not to have a care in the world. Not to worry about bills!
But I wouldn't want to relive my teenage years. It was not that pleasant. It was a hard age.

Well, Yesterday Roz and Rick took Rhonda and Mark to the airport. Roz told me her adventure to the airport and how 2 airplanes flew right at her and dad. But no worries the airplanes miss them. After leaving the airport they got to stop at the McDonald overpass. Which she thinks is cool to see all the cars drive underneath. Jarad is with for the week. Rozalynn is so excited. Keanul is to, but he doesn't express it like Rozalynn does.

Well Rita and Gale are gone. They left this morning. I had a great weekend with them. It was nice seeing Gale we don't get to see him as often as we do Rita. Can't wait for the wedding. I was telling Rita it will be like a little family reunion. Not much going on today. Went into work early. woohoo!! Which I will be going in early tomorrow to. boo! For back up reasons. One of the lady call off today so my boss wants to make sure we have coverage tomorrow. So that would mean me, seeing how no one else knows the job. Sometimes you wonder is it really good to know it all and be a good worker? I think not. lol.

So I was thinking to myself today. Damn Eve. She just had to pick that fruit and eat it. She just couldn't leave it alone. She just couldn't admire it from afar! As Flow is in town, another uninvited guess, and it is not pretty. If she didn't eat the fruit could you just image what life would be like. Pain free, no cramps, no bloating, no crying at stupid commerical, just bless. We could just sit in the garden watching the day go by with no worries. We wouldn't be as irritated with our family. Just a little bit, but not as much. Because you know the kids wouldn't pick up after themselves still. Just enjoying life.

We are looking forward to our nephew coming and staying with us. Our sister (Rhonda) and her husband (Mark) are going to Nicaragua for a week on a missionary trip. I pray that the Lord looks over you. You guys have a safe and fun trip. Rhonda don't think about the bugs. (lol) Love you guys. I'll see you when you get back. Say hi to Mitch, Renee, Roger, and Rhonda for us.

Well I am tired too long of a day for me.

The Unknown

It's sometimes scary when you don't know what's going to happen next. The unknown of what tomorrow brings. The test, the bump in the road, of your faith, your marriage, your life. Not knowing just drive you mad. I remember and something that sticks in my head is something that Mitch Clay had said. One of are dear and most beloved friend of the family, " We as a society always want everything now." " We do not look at the big picture." " We want, what we want on our time." "But, we need to wait to see if it is God time." " God time is not insink with ours!" " God's time is his time."
We need to live for today not for tomorrow. We need to look at what today brought us. What great things that God has done for us today. I think as a society or just as human beings we are so use to looking at all the negatives first and seeing the good second. So in this big picture I think at the present time Rick and I are struggling to makes ends. But I faith that we are meant for big better things. I think that God is testing Rick and I being so early in our marriage. Can they make though the tough times. Can we make though the bad and ugly. Still have our love for one and other, our faith and love in the Lord. I think to myself there are a lot of things that I want, but is it what I need? I don't think I need it just yet, because God hasn't gave the okay. The unknown is scary only if you let it be! Just keep your head high, have faith, and just pray. God will pave the way.

Gosh today is Thursday already! Where has the week gone? Well on Tuesday the 31st was my honey's and I wedding anniversary. I can't believes it's been 8 years already. I can't believe in a couple of weeks we have been together for for 11 years. I can still remember our first date like it was yesterday. We went to see a movie and go for dinner. It was not the best 1st date. One the movie was horrible it was "Bordello's Blood" (Rick pick this out). Rick loses his wallet in the theater (which I thought what a cheap s.o.b.) so I payed for supper. Later I come to find out he loses his wallet alot! Our second date wasn't the greatest either; how did we manage to stay together only God's know..(lol). We went to Chinatown in Chicago with my mother and some of her friends. I learn that Rick has never had authentic Chinese food. Well let just say it open Rick's eye to a new take on Chinese food (not in a good way either). I did not know Rick was not eating that much. That he was starving until on our way back he stop at a McDonnell's overpass. I think our first couple months of dating was a bit bumpy, alittle rocky. But after that it's been smooth sailing for us. I think we are a match made on heaven. I still feel as if we are newlyweds. He still make me feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world. We have the best relationship that I could ever imagine. He is definitely my best friend, the best father to our children, and the love of my life. I could not imagine my life with out him. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us in the future.
So to Rick I just want to say " I love you More!"